My friend Pam was terribly unhappy with her job. She hated sitting at her desk day after day in the dark dreary windowless room that was her office. The sight of it made her utterly depressed to the point she would go home after work every day and cry. For months she desperately sought the Lord’s guidance as to what to do. Finally she felt God leading her to leave her position.
With peace of mind she gave her thirty-day notice. But going from two salaries to one ended up leaving she and her husband in financial hardship. Now she found herself in a whole new predicament. Confused, she started questioning God and questioning herself.
Why would God lead me down this path if it was going to be worse for me?
Did I hear Him correctly?
Have you ever felt this way? Like God let you down or led you in the wrong direction?
I have, recently. And it left me feeling crushed, bewildered and honestly, a little angry.
As I prayed to God about the situation, I conveyed my anxiety and hurt. His answer was to gently remind me of another time when I felt bruised after following where I felt sure His finger was pointing. At the time the outcome looked disastrous, however, years later I discovered what God was really up to.
And it was all good.
You see, on this side of heaven we will never have eyes see the whole picture.
It may feel like we’re being led in the wrong direction when God is actually guiding us to the right destination.
It was fifteen years ago when I found myself in this quandary. I had been praying for months as how to help my family. Dad had been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, my brother who had disabilities from birth was still living with Mom and Dad and money was tight—really tight. Mom needed daily help, physically and financially. Finally David and I both came to the conclusion, God was leading us to move my family closer to us so I could be more hands-on help.
We moved them to a condominium complex a mile away from us.
Within a month of the move we found out there were major structural problems with the whole complex that had not been disclosed. Laws suits went flying. Every property owner was assessed thousands and thousands of dollars. It was disastrous.
Just like the other day, I felt confused, frustrated and plain old mad. I questioned God on every level.
But it would be 12 years before we understood completely all the whys and hows that made no sense at the time.
My parents were 80 plus years old when we moved them across town from the area where they had lived for over 40 years. The move was particularly hard especially on my brother.
My dad passed about 2 years after the move and my mom died 10 years after him. I knew when they were gone I’d have to find my brother a new place to live.
Within a month Mom passing I heard from a friend that applications were being taken for a community being built literally a mile and half down the road from the condo on the same side of the street tugged back into the woods. The finishing touches were being put on an affordable independent housing community for the intellectually and physically handicapped that I had no idea existed.
Shortly before my brother moved in I discovered the planning of the community was started the same year I had my family make the difficult move across town. The one that I viewed as disastrous.
The property the Arc Village was built on had been deeded the state 50 years earlier for the sole purpose of using for the handicapped. There it sat…for years until now…right when we needed it.
But what if we hadn’t moved my family in 2005? Would things have lined up the way the did? I don’t know but I do know we went where God led us. He knew the decisions we would make and made provisions for each one and today I have a testimony to tell of how He works all things together for our good even when they look bad.
So when It feels like God has been leading you in the wrong direction instead of being bewildered, hurt, angry, expect to eventually land in the right destination. Because you will.
In His time
Looking forward, pressing on and trusting God with every bump and twist in the road.