I’m so excited to start this new blog series, Freedom is Found in the Heart of Surrender. And I just love my first guest, Katie Reid. She’s a “doer” girl with a Martha heart just like me. It’s hard for us Martha types to surrender control of what’s in our grasp but as you’ll see in Katie’s post, God redeems what we let go.
There’s a give away at the bottom so please check it out.
Post by: Katie M. Reid
I love musicals! I used to dream of singing from a Broadway stage, or atop a piano at a jazz club (in a sequin dress, of course).
You can imagine my delight when I attended the “Child of the Promise” musical many years ago. Stirring songs surrounded the Biblical account of Jesus’ birth in a top-notch stage show.
One of the songs, “When the Dream Never Dies,” stuck with me. Zacharias’ wife, Elizabeth, sings it when she discovers she will be a mother, after years of barrenness.
The lyric that still surfaces in my heart is, “He has given me back what I laid at His feet- it must be God when the dream never dies.”
From seventh grade on, I was in one musical a year through my senior year. Being in these shows fed something deep within. Unfortunately, I was “living for the applause” and shining in the spotlight to collect glory for myself. My pride and hunger for acceptance was fed as I showed off.
Being in musicals helped me enjoy school more, but I was quite a diva. I also made impure choices behind the scenes in my theater days.
When I came to college I wanted a fresh start.
I considered trying out for “Fiddler on the Roof” but chickened out, afraid that I wouldn’t be doing it for the right reasons and might be tempted to make compromising choices again.
During my freshman year I discovered what it really meant to have a love relationship with Christ (largely in part to the Experiencing God Bible Study). And I felt compelled to lay my theater dream on the altar; surrendering it to the Lord.
I was unsure whether He would ever allow me to pick it back up, but, I knew it was what I needed to do.
There was pain in the surrender as I entrusted the Lord with such a big part of myself. Yet there was also relief, knowing that this yielding was a turning point.
Throughout the years I did some skits at church and helped put on a Easter production, but I never got on stage in the secular arena until recently. Almost eighteen years after laying the dream down, I felt like it was okay to pick it up again.
My daughter and I tried out for a play at a local community theatre. It was such a joy to audition together and be back on-stage. We were floored when we got two of the lead roles!
Back in the day, I did theater for me—for my glory, for my fame. But this time I relied on God’s strength to rehearse and perform with more humility and purity. Of course I didn’t get it right all the time, but it felt different—better, redeemed.
“God gave me back what I laid at His feet.”
I was a bit uncomfortable with the attention I received during the show and tried to downplay and deflect it. Funny, how God gave it back when He knew I would handle it differently.
All along God cared about this dream (but He cared about my heart more).
As I entrusted the dream to Him all those years ago, He kept it safe, and then He gave it back in a resurrected form: redeemed for His purpose and glory.
Has God asked you to lay down something that is getting in the way of your relationship with Jesus?
Surrender isn’t easy, but it is worth it.
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Katie M. Reid is a writer and speaker who encourages others to find grace in the unraveling of life. Katie delights in her hubby, five children, and their life in ministry. She is a fan of cut-to-the-chase conversation over hot or iced tea. Katie and her husband broadcast live from their hammock each week. Katie also has an album, Echoes of My Heart, available for purchase. This album is a worshipful blend of original songs and poems to help you unwind.