Psalm 25: 4-5 Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.
When my children were young I was lucky enough to be able to stay at home with them. Early on it had been a struggle financially, but in the end it was the right decision for us.
When my boys were 6 and 9 we moved and they had to attend a different school. I volunteered in their classrooms. The principal took notice of the work I was doing with some of the children, found out that I had a degree in special education and offered me a very desirable part-time job tutoring.
The day in and day out routine of being a stay at home mom can sometimes feel quite thankless. More often than not you feel unappreciated.
When the principal of the boy’s school sought me out for the part-time job, I was flattered. It was very tempting. She was willing to accommodate my every need (even giving me off on Wednesdays to go to Bible study) to entice me to work at the school. I thought, wow, here is someone who appreciates me and wants me for something other than policing who’s turn it is to play the video game next. I struggled as to what to do.
Proverbs 16:18 Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.
In my heart of hearts, I just wanted to be a stay at home mom. I liked being organized when the kids came home from school. This afforded me the time to help them with homework and still have dinner on the table when hubby came home from work.
The job wasn’t about the money. I didn’t need the money (it would be nice but I didn’t need it). It was about feeling valued. I liked the thought of being wanted. It was definitely a pride (pr”I”de) issue. When I was able to see the “I” in my situation, I made the decision to turn down the job. It was the right choice for me and my family.
Pride is deceitful. It doesn’t always show up as ugly. It can come to our door wrapped in a pretty package with a colorful bow but it will still distort our thinking and alter our decision making.
A friend just came to me the other day with a similar situation. A company had searched her out and offered her employment. The training and offer was very appealing and she felt good about it. After all it feels great to be wanted and sought after, right? Listening to her story took me back a few years. Different name, definitely different year, different employer, different family, but same bottom line. Will you take the job because you need the money or do you take the job for the temporary recognition that is sure to fade after awhile. What is your priority? Isn’t the battlefield in our mind where most our troubles begin?
Matthew 6:33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
I am learning that I don’t have to seek the approval of others. I only need to seek the Lord . In Him I have found my significance and purpose.
Do you feel insignificant? Is pride tempting you to find your approval in areas that might compromise your priorities? Then follow these simple steps: Take your daily challenges to your Heavenly Father in prayer. Seek Him first in all areas of your life. Listen for Him to speak to your heart. Then follow His paths. He promises to take care of our needs. We are His priority!